my son died on 8.28.09. he was 23, extremely intelligent, lacked some social skills which gave him great anxiety. he graduated this past may from reed college, portlamd or and had just started the doctoral work at a of missouri the week he died. the cause of death was accidental overdose.

i tried to wake him to go to bedroom to sleep, he was on couch. i am very experienced in hospice and recognized he was in rigor when i touched his cold skin. he and i always assumed we live together as we were very good friends. the loss you described instantly came to me as i called family and 911. that thought is haunting me and i must go to extremes to stay busy with something. but i cant even keep attention and have lots of stuff in process. my john john had been basicaly shunned by all family, for arguably just cause. it was just john and me, like always.

sorry to babble...my prayers are with you. peace, chris from missouri