The more I read, the more painful it becomes. The realization that the nature of my affliction has been overlooked for 35 years. The irony being that the nature of the afflcition itself is what can lead to this oversight. SPD does not get a lot of press It seems it is only of real interest when one is at the lower functioning end of the spectrum. A lot of studies of it seem to take place among male prison inmates. I am not male, and have never even been arrested, and yet this disorder has determined the course of my life since I was an adolescent.
I am posting this because I am grieving, not because I want to whine or feel sorry for myself. I know that now that I know what is wrong I will at last be able to do someting about it I just wish it hadn't been such a long search for this one answer.