Meaning is subjective.

"I am fine, thanks." As much as I may want to die, I'm very good at procrastinating. Why do today what you could put off till tomorrow, and all that.

Normal folk think of suicide in terms of "I would need to be suffering so much to want to die". I, however, have to find excuses to live. Some days it's easier than others.

Well, whatever, I'm tired. Sweet dreams.