For the last 5 yrs I have been an emotional rollercoaster. All of it stemming from my first and second husbands abuse. while i have gone to doctors they didn't know about the abuse nor did i voulenteer the info. I have been diagnosed with bi-polar dissorder. but now that i have read up on it i don't think it is bipolar at all I think it is ptsd.

The things that made me even look into this are the constant nightmares, anxiety attacts i have and horrible flash backs that are triggered by the smallest things. i don't feel in controll of my life at all. I was in a gasstation this morning and the man behind the counter looked EXACTLY like my first husband I froze I couldn't move or speak or do anything i turned and ran out of the gasstation when i got in my car i was sobbing histarically but i was certain it was him and i just knew he was gonna get me. I don't know what to do this is ruining my life. I was just wondering if anyone had any advice on this for me or am i just being dumb.