At my first session, my T asked what I wanted to accomplish in therapy, and I told him "I want to be able to feel my feelings". The only feelings I was aware of were what I called "Stressed" and "Okay". And Stressed was beating out Okay, hands down. I knew that life was supposed to be fuller than that, but I didn't know how to get there.

If I had to talk about my goals now, 3 1/2 years in, they would probably be to carry a place of peace inside, to feel comfortable connecting with other people, to be able to manage flashbacks/triggers, to integrate all of the parts of me so that I never lose time, etc. And like T always says, to have power over the past, instead of it having power over me.

I'm getting closer, but it's a slow process.