I have a great gyn... She adjusts the speculum to fit me so it doesn't hurt and I don't have to go away. I have to do the exam as the body may have cancer as a result of the sexual abuse. I have my D&C. June 19 and then we will know for sure. Needless to say we are in mix up time. I only told her about the sexual abuse not the DID. I cannot do colonoscopy at all as the destructive ones come out. There is too much risk.