Hmmmm... I'm thinking about what you said about telling someone about your bulimia. I wonder if that is why I don't engage in the behavior after writing about it. I think saying it outloud or writing it makes me realize how unnecessary and harmful it is.

I think what gets ME trapped in the bulemic mindset is the feeling of self loathing, anxiety, and loss of control over things in my life. Like right now, I'm so stressed and I started eating bread with butter on it. Now I feel worse and I want to eat more. And then I feel like purging because I hate myself.
I think therapy could definitely help with breaking that destructive thought process.