Hugs and prayers that a placement will show up for you. Do they have any sort of financial advisor that might be able to help with the other part? I wish you could get your Mom's voice out of your head so it won't pull you down. Revise the goal any way you have to for success, but don't give up on yourself. It isn't failure to revise a goal so you can succeed. Hugs (((((iamspecial)))))