Maybe you can find someone who you can talk about it with? a friend you trust more, or another adult that is close to you, like another father figure or something. i dont know if there is something like that available for you, but there is also a chance a T could help more than the things i mentioned.
The scars feel really bad right...? i really wish i could give you a better advice.. but i havent experienced that myself.. but all i can tell you is that you arent alone.