Hey Doc.

I think you may've answered your own question better than I could...I think, given that the since of power and authority is what attracted you to the uniform in the first place, losing that "specialness" towards the uniform in recognizing you have that power yourself killed the fetish. I know losing something that's been a major part of your life for 7 months sucks, but look at the bright side. I think, speaking for myself, it's better for DrSkipper to have that sense of power and control 24/7 than only fleetingly in the uni. You've come one hell of a long way since I first met you here...you should be proud of that. Exceedingly so.

I can't tell you much about your own orientation. I can only advise that, for the time being, try not to stress about it. I've always thought of it in terms that what's the immediate point of a label. Just be honest with yourself, and try not to worry about it for the time being. I think, given time, you'll find the answer to that.

And I am sorry about the characters. My closest analogue to that was when I started to lose interest in my action figures as a kid (which...lol to be fair, those things kept me occupied until I was...13, I think? I know the comparison isn't quite the same, nor do I mean to imply that your characters are childish. I don't think so. This is only my closest reference.). I had back stories and elaborate personalities for each. They had their own personality, and really, it became a matter that the toy was far less important than the character itself. When they became boring, the memories of them started to fade...six years later, I only remember 3 out of about 30. Losing them is painful, yes. But I think the trade for them to being able to spend time with people and not being lonely (something I struggled a bit with as an only child) is a trade well worth it. Just give yourself some time for the adjustment. It gets easier.

Try to relax a bit Doc. I know losing the fetish, which was a pretty big part of Doc, sucks a bit, but you're gaining so much in return. You should be proud of that. Give this some time, and I think you'll see time prove me right. I think that feeling you don't want to lose will, more likely than not, find its way back to you.

Hugs,
Harley