Dear Lizzie: ; That is a tough one; trying to trust when it has been violated. There are many books on sexual abuse by therapists (I found many in the TELL website); they are shocking. Sex in the Forbidden Zone is an excellent one by Peter Rutter. I have spoken with some responders on the TELL website. They are amazing. As for telling your husband that is something you should speak with with your new therapist. My therapy was sexualized for 7 years (no intercourse), but devastating. I kept a record of all that he said and did; it was also physical...he led me on big time.....he was married AND a pastor! Keep talking, that is the only way to begin to heal. There are some things we never fully heal from, but find a way to live with them. I recommend the TELL website and books on the subject; it helps a lot to know you aren't alone. If you want the names of the books, just ask and I will give you the titles. Hugs, Nicole