While it is certainly horrifying stats, I have to admit I've been divorced 4 times. Married/divorced twice to the same man, and I'm reunited with #4... So not quite as horrid as it sounds but...

...the common denominator in my failed relationships is me. I'm newly diagnosed as having BP1, so it wasn't like that was thrown around all over the place. Although it was mentioned a few times that I could have it, but I always denied that possibility. I am very codependent and don't find myself in the healthiest of relationships.

I would love for my husband now to be open, supportive, read books, listen when I talk about it etc, but it's just not his style. I have to work on changing myself, not him.

I am going to BDSA meetings that also has workshops to address things like anger, self esteem, etc. so I think knowing that I have a disorder I can be more proactive. I have a disorder, but it doesn't have to define me or ruin my relationships.

I want to strive to be a healthier person - in all areas of my life - and all my relationships, not just marital.

My morning thoughts.