Jul 27, 2013 at 04:40 PM
This is the worst 3 days ever. My husband went away for a few days. My therapist invited attachment and then slammed the door in my face( I think he realized he went over board with being to involved in my care). So now every feeling of being abandoned, intrinsically broken, wanting to not be human, has flooded me. I have had 4 episodes of binging/purging. It helps for a few hours and then I feel worse about myself. I am already preparing for the next episode. I even bought food that will keep things in control and simple. If only T would just send a message asking how I am doing like he use to.
I failed him some how and he put me on the back burner. He had high hopes and I did not. He overwhelmed me with his hopes for me and it made me feel worse about myself.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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