is it normal to feel sadness and joy at the same exact time? I am a first time mom, and the entire 9 months of my pregnancy I spent fighting with my fiancé because of catching him cheating. We are trying to make it work to save the family but it has taken quite an emotional toll on me. I have this beautiful baby and feel such joy when I look at my babys smiling face, then at the same time I feel sadness and self hate, and low selfesteem from his cheating. some days I don't even feel like getting out of bed, but I have to anyway to care for my baby, we fight and scream and yell all the time, and I wonder what affect it could have on our child when he grows up, just wish I had the money to move out and leave him but I don't, I am stuck living under the same roof like a caged animal wanting to escape to the freedom of being respected and loved and valued by a REAL man, any comments of advice or support would be greatly appreciated, thankyou for reading.