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Location: New Jersey
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Default Jan 28, 2014 at 07:15 AM
 
I'm actually just really fed up with this whole psychotherapy thing! I find it to be really disturbing. I am conflicted against myself with it.
The thing is, it is all traumatizing to me..and so far it has been nothing but damaging. So who does one go to when damaged and needs support and healing?
The fact is, it has been used against me, to only abuse me. I am abused by someone and called crazy by them. Telling me I need help.
It all started when I was a preteen I guess. I was first called retarted because I was a witness of child abuse of my sister. The system was used to silence me. Then I went through domestic violence and my past was used to silence me, and my own depression was used against me to silence me. I went to domestic violence counsel and I became damaged from that. My spouse used that against me and they suggested I see counsel. I already have and I became damaged from that.
I stayed away from this madness and severely traumatized. So I sought out a PTSD specialist...and that is quite damaging. So I tried to seek out a woman and another PTSD therapist and she sent me into a panic trigger attack, justifying my now messed up so called PTSD specialist...who is very uninsightful to PTSD and trauma.

So I just studied everything out there...Even the DSM4 I wanted to find the damage they are doing to me.

My speech is messed up, well in different ways for different reasons. ...but I realized some of my speech pattern is messed up from one hour sessions, squeezing my overwhelming cluttered mess into one hour sessions with people who don't care...and it goes no where. I feel like its like a transmission shop owner go to the Amish people and start telling about his stress with his work on transmissions.

When to leave therapy????

I have been going through this for about 12 years. I never got therapy. What I got is more stressful messes on top of others... and no one to talk to or get any support or comfort from. ..and their just more things I have problems with.

Which how can I even explain it all to even go to anyone...and if the next person is just as messed up. I just got another messed up added issue.

...and I realized...I don't believe in the DSM for some of it...that is not medical. I am judged wrong by therapists because their just trying to fit me under their false trendy labels. Saying the dumbest, unempthetic, insensitive things to me.

Just because we suffer...doesn't mean we are stupid. Usually the problem isn't because we do not know what is going on, have knowledge or how to help ourselves. Its just that we live in an ignorant world, where people who suffer are not allowed to have a say or choice, and we are suppressed by the counselors and governing ignorance of the world.

Forced to live continuously in this mess...telling us we are the ones who need help.
I think everyone needs help...Yea I am in a lot of pain and trauma. Many say we can help you, and all I get is another needle stuck in my wounds, asking me....DOES THAT HURT...YEA WELL YOU HAVE A WOUND!!! You must of done something wrong!!! You just have to accept you did this to yourself. Here have some drugs it will help make it all go away! ...because the problem is all in you and the drugs will take it all away and cure you.
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