I have had an epiphany about this situation with my husband and our friend. How I am feeling is REALLY about me and my issues of care-taking, control, fixing, and trying to orchestrate relationships that are not mine to fix. I falsely believed (once again) that if I can control the external environment, I will feel better inside. I know this about myself but I have to revisit this place on occasion.

True serenity is getting comfortable on the inside ... I've got more work to do.