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nushi · Mar 11, 2014 at 06:53 AM

I think all of PC forums is a home for us dear court

I can feel you, 'cause I lost my dad 6 years ago for cancer. But my mom always tells me that I'm partly to be blamed for his death, 'cause I psychologically tortured him with my excessive OCD when we were living alone. And as you know, mental & psychological condition affects a lot the progress of our physiological illnesses

Sometimes, I feel that I've been a curse to my father that finally took his life.

But you know what, I don't brood over that a lot. Because I'm still alive, & I believe that throughout the rest of my life-years I could work hard to do good things for other people. 'Cause, I don't know if you believe in God or not, but I believe all the good things that I do to compensate the torture I've caused my dad, will hopefully make God forgive me, & He would convey all this to dad. And later in the after-life, I pray that I'll meet up with dad again in Heaven, & he'll be satisfied with all I'm doing now to compensate my OCD intolerable behavior with others