i believe my girlfriend and i also lost a child, prior to his birth.

it was traumatic for me. i still worry about it, a few months after.

some people tell me that she might not have been pregnant. that maybe it was just a late period.

whatever the truth really is, i feel that i did lose a child.

i think, though that a persons life cant be attributed on something small as another humans decisions.

i dont think anything i did or didnt do was large enough to be a determining factor in the survival of my child.

i look at myself. my parents did a lot to help me and also a lot to harm me. but in the end, i can't look at a singular decision either of them took and say that it made me who i am today.

i think life, and living it, is huge. and no matter what one or more people did to me, even my mother, in the end, the pictures much too large to blame or thank anyone for it.

i hope things get better for you, i really do. no matter who you are.