I am sorry to hear you are struggling so. I am happy to hear that you finally had the courage to talk about yur struggle. you experienced a highly traumatic situation. don't judge yourself for being where you are. I am so glad that you are seeking therapy. I am sure it is going to be a big help. I am surprised you were not asked questions related to post partum depression. I know my daughter was screened for it at her child's well baby checks. I hope the meds and therapy improve your mental state. keep posting. take care.