this is tough
its embarrasing
and shameful

i was sexually abused by my father
and working thru it with T
when i left home
i didnt hesitate to sleep with a guy mostly friends who wanted more
my T said its cos i wanted to be loved and this was only way i understood it to be

i still dont know how to get that caring feeling from guys i want to care for me and love me

my bf dont complain he loves out sex life
but i guess i want it to change in that i dont want this to be the only way i get that feeling.

does anyone else feel this way
or am i just a disgusting freak