I cant believe I did a reply and it didnt work. But mainly what it said was can I have a copy of this info somehow. and that my older brother offered me castor oil once when I was blacked out for two weeks. He was about 7 and me 5. I thought he had real insight now looking back. And this acts as a positive trigger to me. (and I only just learned what a trigger is since coming to PC) I better not make this too long because maybe it wont work.