Hi. I hope you are doing well today. I am on the other end where emotions control me and tears flow when I don't even want them to or know why! BUT, something that caught my attention is what you said at the age of 5 - and you were taught crying is a sign of weakness. OMG; how horrible! I have a close friend that just said those words to me that she has learned to suck it up bc crying is a sign of weakness her new boyfriend has told her. I totally disagree .. crying can cleanse the soul .. and it shows you are human. I understand you took that vow at 5 .. but I look at it kind of like at 5 or even 10 I said I was going to be a teacher no matter what...life changes, things change .. even though that "vow" was taken at 5 for you..does not mean you can't change it. Don't hold on to that that was so many years ago. Now, of course I don't have an answer to make you "cry" .. just as I have no answers why I could cry any day at any time...but through therapy and a leap of faith I have learned to truly try and deal with the emotion to myself .. feel it .. and LET IT GO. I just hope you will take it to heart that crying is not a sign of weakness. You are Human. It's totally normal. I hope that you have a great day!!!!!