I hope what I'm feeling makes sense to someone. I hope someone can help me make sense of it. I don't even know if I'm explaining it correctly.
I am depressed but yet I'm not. For every 10 reasons I can give for me being unhappy I can give you 10 reasons to why I am happy. I am happy. I love my family...sometimes. I have good friends. I have a lot of reasons to be happy but yet again I can give you reasons why I am not. I don't know how to explain it. I could think of plenty of reasons to cry and then plenty to smile.
Do you ever get in a blah mood? Maybe that is the mood I'm in. How do you get past it?