hi ~

I am having a hard time these days as my older sister is dying & I've had no one to talk to about it since my family is very estranged. she has had chronic schizophrenia since I was around 8 years old but I still remember very well what a strong creative person she was before she got sick.. I've been posting a memorial each day in the comments of my blog here ~

snowball in hell: some thoughts on adult insecure attachment..

I wonder if others here have gone through losing their schizophrenic relative? her life was so difficult & tragic, it is uniquely painful as it is like we already lost her or what was essentially her, decades ago, & have been on hold emotionally for all this time..

thanks to anyone who takes the time to read..

bren/ghost