Okay so I told her about it last night because it was bothering me a lot and I couldn't stand feeling guilty. It wasn't really a big deal to her at all.

But now I feel really guilty about masturbating to pictures of people I know, regardless of how she feels about it. I feel like it's a really objectifying thing to do, and I feel like by doing it I am almost betraying the trust of the people whose pictures I have used. I have just decided to take a break from masturbating in general because of the stress it's been causing me, but I don't know how to move on from this guilty feeling. I feel so so so bad about doing this and I feel like I don't deserve to stay friends with the people whose pictures I used. Also, I realized that in the past I used a picture of a girl who is two years younger than me, and I feel like I did something horrible by doing that, since I am only in my first half of college...am I wrong for doing that?

I know that these obsessive patterns of thought are characteristic of OCD, and I am gonna seek professional help, but I don't know how to move past these feelings of guilt. I feel like I've made huge mistakes. Everybody else just uses porn, but I did this terrible thing by objectifying and betraying people I know...how can feel better about this? I can't stop thinking about it...