I'm in a slave/Master relationship. When I told my T she thought I was seeking pain. Sort of a redemption from past sins. This made me feel terribly guilty. So I tried to stop. Honestly. But I couldn't & can't. It's what I am.
Many people will say, oh this relates to ur past trauma. Really it has nothing to do w/ it. It never really comes out, but has only empowered me. I love it.
My T didn't really accept it & things I wanted to discuss about the lifestyle she just didn't understand nor wanted to. So I decided to stop seeing her. I don't need that source of guilt anymore.
I'm different. I'm unique & in today's standards of trying desperately to fit in, I know I need to find my own path.