I don't know how to respond to this as I kind of feel like it is geared toward my current predicament. After the last few days, I feel like a lunatic and I have no idea what is going on with me. I think I am responding to the condition of my aunt and, especially, witnessing her hooked up to a ventilator, but I do know that my pdoc has told me that episodes can be triggered by stress. I was feeling down a couple of weeks ago (when she was fine) and never recovered and now I've been panic ridden and strangely paranoid. I am afraid I am going to die and I'm scared to death about it. I don't know if it's my bipolar but I do know that I don't "normally" act like this. I feel like I don't have the coping skills in my toolbox to handle this so I just start flipping out and can't be calmed down unless or until I start crying hysterically or take my medicine.