HI there. Welcome to Psych Central. Sorry you are facing mulitiple challenges. What you describe are the symptoms of depression. Nothing seems possible - but you are a member here now, so at least hang out here and read other people's posts.

There are public resources to help those with mental illness. If you are coming up empty google NAMI (Natiional Alliance Mental Illness) and your town or county and see what you find. They have free support meetings and a crisis line. Their website is NAMI: National Alliance on Mental Illness | NAMI: The National Alliance on Mental Illness

Many people here at PC find they can share these feelings and what they are going through with the confidence that people go through similar things and can empathize. So many forums are offered as well as Chatrooms (after you have 5 posts or comments on others posts). Depression Support Chat Thursday 9PM EST and Anxiety Support Chat Friday at 8PM EST. You do not have to text chat here, you can just sit and be with people and listen to others stories. Better to be with people.

You can also be an active member in other ways like supporting others in their questions, reading articles and posts http://forums.psychcentral.com that are applicable to your area of concern.

Please feel free to private message me or any of the Community Liaisons by left clicking on the name in blue to the left of their post) for questions or just to share.