(((HAYSEED))). I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. Many people feel the empty nest syndrome when your children get grown. Sometimes you just have to find other things to put your effort into when there is more time on your hands than what you can fill. There are many things that are available such as volunteering and helping in your community. Volunteermatch is a good site to find a volunteer job if you are interested and also the library is usually a good place to start if you only have a few hours to contribute weekly. Taking a class is good as well if you have the time. take care Hayseed. Soidhonia