Hey there, Been reading from this forum and have to say wow thought I was only one with job and realionship problems but I see I am not I know there are alot of bps out there but I don't know any. I have been dxed now for 20 years and also have 3 kids witch 2 have same dx and its scarey.. I am in a realionship now that is healthy if thats at all possiable. he is great and knows about my bp being a ER nurse he sees alot of folks with problems like mine and he knows that I may be his next patient but he is supportive and understanding .. I know thats good but man it scares me never had someone who would stand by me before guess I will learn to. he does not push meds on me and i like that I will someday go back on meds when the time is right for me. I know when I do he will be there to help me all the way.. Question I have for other BP'S do any of you suffer with not beening able to show emotion greiving, crying, I am afraid to cry . afraid I will never stop if I start any one else feel taht or have felt that way???