I have been taking Adderall for about 6 years now. Recently had to stop as I quit my job (it was making me miserable) so I lost my health insurance. My depression has gotten so much worse since, I thought it was from all the other meds I went off at the same time.

Now your post has me wondering: Was the Adderall helping my depression after all? It certainly made me more functional, helped me get more done, and it's sooo much easier to keep a job when I have it on hand. I have ADHD and MDD... Maybe it was helping with both and I didn't realize it?

When I was applying to my last job, since it's a casino and I'd be in charge of large sums of chips and cash every day, I had to pass a drug test. Which should have been fine, except it took the Compliance office 3 freaking weeks to "verify" my Adderall prescription!! Thank goodness I got a decent tax return a couple weeks before that or I'd have been homeless by the time they figured out how to do their jobs!! After sending pictures to multiple people more than once, I finally had to go into the office with prescription and pill bottle in hand! Once I did, the complaints went away quickly, the girls I spoke with were very helpful and compassionate. But man oh man! Some people love making you feel like a druggie even when you're just taking a medication exactly as prescribed!! This has led me to become very annoyed with people who DO abuse Adderall. It's because of people like that that makes it so hard for me to get a LEGAL drug which really helps me! What a nightmare...

Anyway, nothing really useful to contribute. Just wanna say your post really resonated with me, I completely understand!! Good luck to you and I hope you continue to battle the Depression Demons with your head held high. You got this!!