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Old 07-17-2017, 08:05 PM  
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Talking Re: 14 years of anorexia and so done.

Originally Posted by iwanttobelieve View Post
I have a long history of anorexia spanning 14 years that resulted from 8 years of childhood sexual abuse. Lots of hospitalisations. One recent failed suicide attempt. Ive been in therapy for the last two years. At 27 Im now feeling the physical affects of anorexia, and I WANT to recover, and Im frustrated that I still cannot eat.

I feel like a victim of my own mind. I dont want to be a revolving door patient. I understand that we can 'only sae ourselves', yet I cannot seem to 'save myself'. The services in the area where I live for people with eating disorders are sparce and Ive exhuasted the resources that are available, I also dont have the money to go privately. I also dont know how any other professional could help me in any other way in which I havent already been 'helped' in the last 14 years.

I see people younger than me, recovering. I also see people older than me living with this illness in their 40's and 50's and beyond and that terrifies me - and I know that could be me if I carry one.

Im frustrated and feel so alone, and have no idea where to turn.

How are you today Ms. Lizette? I read your post and I'm with you 100%.
I've had this disease for 30 years. I was diagnosed in 86. I'm doing very poorly due to malnutrition. I know I can't find treatment because I've been looking for quite some time. I tried to gain weight but I can't stand the feeling of it. I'm sorry you're stuck in this disease. I have no idea how I can help / support you but I would like to help you. But I can't help myself so I should just mind my own business.

I'm new here so I don't know what else I can do for the anorexics here.

Best of luck getting better!
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