oooh yes.

I have different modes
baseline: no sexdrive at all
mixed: it's complicated. Mostly urge to but repulsed at the same time.
hypo and depressed: sex drive up

Both hypo and depressed sex drive seem to be a form of selfharm (sad but true) and an escape from boredom for me.
Also calming down from anxiety or restlessnes (I mean on a hormornal level this makes perfect sense).

I act more on it while hypo because of my overly confidence in my sexual abilities and desire to show it to the world (if this makes sense). I feel sexy and probably more turned on by the thought of how I look during sex then by the other person.

It feels like control over my body while at the same time I seem to lose control over it.