Haaaah, after years n' years of feeling super empty n' worthless n' horrible, I think I'm finally starting to feel better!
I started taking citalopram a few weeks ago (to my mom's dismay, she didn't think it would work since fluoxetine didn't do any wonders for me), and the entire time I was legitimately terrified that it wouldn't do anything and nothing would change, but I'm actually doing better! For real! It feels kind of bizarre, having changed so drastically in the span of maybe two months after spending so long feeling like garbage, but it's a very, very good kind of bizarre.
I've only posted here one or two times, but I was in quite a rough patch and the people who responded genuinely made me feel a lot better. So thank you, everyone, so very much!