So, I saw my lover yesterday. It went well. I told him in a message that I love him. Well, I did not expect him to say anything and he has not. He probably is shocked. I love him in bed. hahahahaha So, I'm happy. I let go of the other man who has bipolar. He is married and is not smart. Neither was I. I don't want to get involved with married men. It is too much trouble. I am happy now.