Me too. I'm trying to be more open about my mental health issues. And, surprisingly, it feels quite good.
Not good. But a relief.
Things came to a head when I flipped with an aggressive superior at work. Not just once, but twice.
Basically, I was pretending to be happy when I wasn't happy.
Instead of making an excuse, in the conversations that followed my blow up, I just decided there and then to say thing's as they were.
People think my company is a 'soft' employer. But they're not. Behind the scenes, no-one speaks back to the higher-ups.
Joining this forum had an effect. I got to know some people on here a little bit. They were nice! Sensitive. And my heart went out to them, seeing how they struggled to maintain their integrity in a bruising and indelicate world.
I don't know how it will turn out but I'm genuinely impressed so far with my superiors response.
I have made a space for myself in which I can say what I need and what I won't accept.
I am prepared to quit the job, if necessary.
So, those things in combination (saying for the first time that I wasn't happy, and being ready to leave) made me feel like I was no longer trapped.