im trying to put the days together but i cant...
its like i became in a trance... or hypnotized..
withdrawing from the medication probably didnt help... and i think freaking out and being paranoid about what they were thinking about me made it really bad...
i may have been raped even and i wouldnt of known it...
i just hate myself so much right now... trying not to have suicidal thoughts because i just want to be happy and not have these problems... i dont wanna kill myself... but i dont know how to make it go away... and i feel like no one understands and no one will help or anything and im all alone and no one is ever gonna be by myside with this what ever it is... and i just cant take it anymore...