I have been wanting and tryin to figure out what is wrong with me for a long time...
Just to understand..
Been trying to hide my problems all my life... so being so exposed makes me feel really bad..

I cant do anything different from what i have been doing... trying to survive and deal with whatever symptoms i have.. and keep going to my doctors...

I feel like you are mad at me because i say things like this. Like if i have this or that problem.. i just want to understand what is wrong with me so i can learn to cope...

I want to learn to be a real person..
Someone solid that is not going to be changing all the time like normal people...