I can somehow relate.
I've noticed some time ago that all my interests follow a cycle:
– First I gain a genuine interest and while it's not that important to me get gradually better at it
– The interest turns into an obsession, I begin to compare myself to others and get progressively more anxious about it, until I only pursue it because of fear of being inferior to others
– After a long period of depression, the only way out is to do something completely different, completely turn my life around, leave everyone and everything behind and start anew. Often this is connected with a feeling of glee.

Right now, I'm at the last stage once again. I'm tired of my old life and wish myself far away every day.