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Originally Posted by seeker33
I'm very similar. I tend to care about people and want to help them, but I don't understand them at all at. I feel OK in a small group of people where everyone has passed my "danger/trust test". But at the end of the day, I need a lot of time on my own, only then I can fully relax and be myself. When I'm with people all I can think of is how not to embarrass myself and what are they thinking of me.
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I tried to be nice and caring towards people. They tell me that I'm a good friend and that I care. But sooner or later they have to ruin the relationship with me by starting some nonsense drama.
This is why I've become selfish and somewhat narcissistic. It seems like when I dedicate time to those in need, all I get are problems and unnecessary issues. Then I feel guilty that I wasted my time helping people who "expect" to be helped without appreciation for what I've done for them. I'd rather stick to myself. I'm 35. I have no time to waste.