I was just thinking about this and it's making me feel depressed. I'm still worried that I won't be able to last long enough cause when I masturbate I'm done in like a couple min. at the most usually. Maybe I can last a little longer after masturbating but that's it. It's been bothering me again recently. I really want to have sex. But first I have to find someone who actually wants to do that with me. Some days it just really bothers me. It's a big deal to me. I don't know what to do. I had to talk about this. It feels better to just get this off my chest. Back then it was really hard for me to talk about stuff like this. I don't know if I could tell anyone in real life though. But yeah I don't even know how to explain how I feel about this sometimes. It just bothers me.