I am struggling today. I can't focus on any particular thing so I get nothing done. The house is very quite and that makes my thoughts louder. My brain feels like it is spinning endlessly spinning. I have my dog by my side and that makes things a little better. Right now I am waiting for time to go by so I can go to bed and hope that tomorrow is different. I really need to see a therapist. I will try to do that after the holidays. I wish I had one now.