I am supposed to visit a friend on Saturday. She lives 3 hours away. I will push myself to go. I am having a lot of anxiety. I haven't been sleeping to well just worrying about going that far from where I live. I know I won't get lost. I just keep thinking that I am not ready to do this. This is the first new year she will be without her husband so I don't want to bail. She needs me and in some way I think it will be good for us to get back to doing things we used to do. It's almost 2am and I still don't want to go to bed. I just want the noise in my head to stop. It can be so loud sometimes.