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Default Jan 02, 2018 at 05:28 PM
 
Being Bulimic is miserable. I sat alone for New Years Eve with no special food like a Lobster or pizza that I eat once a year on New Years Eve and no Champagne because well alcohol triggers me even more and I did not want to throw up a expensive lobster or even throw up pizza so I spent the night fighting the urges in my head and watching thriller movies on Netflix as a distraction. It took everything not to even eat. What miserable night.

All I think of is binging and purging and all my energy goes in to fighting it. I have been 3 days clean. I have never been more than 4 weeks clean. Therapy has never worked for the eating disorder.

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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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