Whenever I daydream I noticed that it’s always me being sexually dominant over another person. When I’m reality I’m very much sub. But I’m always imagining my mental health therapist, or friends, or professors catching me in sexual acts?

I seriously am not attracted to my therapist or any of my professors or friends so I don’t understand

I had delusions younger about being raped and impregnated. I also had delusions of being watched in the shower from cameras in the walls, so I felt like I had to put on a shower.
Also, I deal with pure-O thoughts about incest, and I’ve had some compulsive and obsessive thoughts of my family and friends raping and molesting me.

Do you think that would have something to do with my uncontrollable issue with imagining myself as an exhibitionist, and being sexually dominant, when I’m anything but?