I was a virgin all the way until I was 19. I realized at 18, that I had an attraction for other women as well as men. So when I got to college I talked to different types of girls. Finally, I had sex with one. It was an amazing two hours, lol.
We scissored for the majority of the time and after she left I felt like ****. I thought about how I felt towards her and I don’t have feelings for her.
I’m just sexually attracted to her.

I noticed that two days later I was freaking out, stressing, and losing my temper because I hadn’t had sex. Which makes absolutely no sense? I have a Pure-O thoughts about incest and having sex with my friends so maybe that could have something to do with it?
Or because I have delusions about sexual abuse?

Have any of you experienced or heard of this?