We are moving back this weekend. I can not go back to my previous T or Pdoc there company is maxed out on anyone with Medicare insurance. I’m set up with same company another town over but literally I am losing it, 6 years with my Pdoc and T and i just want to quit I didn’t by even know how to do T with someone else , where do I begin ? I refuse to walk through all the past trauma and assaults with a stranger T , I’ll quit it all now meds or T also the latest med for my Arthritis is a total fail.

23 weeks today and I have not been able to move on and sleep even the 2-3 hours a night without nightmares ptsd is ruining my life and now I have no one to turn to provider wise that I desperately need.

Maybe I’ll go home and sleep for weeks or becoming suicidal and need Ip if I can hold on long enough.

I’m so defeated and see no real hope. By the time I can even get into a new psych place my meds will run out, I should just ditch them now anyway.

Sorry I am such a downer, I just see no light at the moment

Hugs to you all

Sorry my rambling makes no senec