I am trying to focus but my mind is all over. I am having a hard time falling asleep and when I do I wake up several times to use the bathroom. I got up earlier this morning so I would be tired and go to bed earlier but 2:34 in the morning and I can't stop my brain long enough to go to bed. I know I should be talking to someone but I don't have the money. It scares me a little not having someone to talk to. It scares me to say it scares me. This is what I go through over and over again. I have been trying to vacuum my home for two weeks and I just can't. I don't know why. I just feel fear and than I sit and do nothing. I have a dog and have had to force myself to take him outside. I was walking him but now I just let him into the yard. I don't want to be seen by anyone. I don't even know what that means. I have to get some help. I want to get some help. i will try on monday. maybe