Background: Had my back literally screwed back together in August..10 screws..Hugh success. So coming off pain medications. Not fun actually rather rough but Doc took me down low as possible. T is seeing me a couple times a week instead of once a month. Everything well organized..meds, supplements, list of symptoms expected daily, weekly etc. Alter who takes care of body present & accounted for. Then all hell broke lose..body pain uncovered earlier abuse memories, dissociated in T's office today, can't tell physical pain from emotional, affecting alters as well. Wondering if it's worth it. One little blue pill will stop it all. Really not into "benefit in the long run" T talked about.