This sounds like me too, and guess what? I'm a virgin. 25 and a virgin.

I lost some of my drive when I got put on Risperdal and stopped imagining sex all the time. I think that the reason I'm still a virgin though is because I'm ashamed of how much I thought about sex when I was going through puberty. I had fantasies about being raped also and now realize that it is really screwed up. I thought about sex with my doctor when he asked me if I wanted a boyfriend innocently and know that I really screwed up my relationship with him.

I also always think that all these guys have crushes on me instantly for some reason now that I think of it. I think that I can get any guy or something even though I've never even had a relationship.